Aruha Syed
Student at the Institute for Health Professions at Cambria Heights (Teacher: Hyun Ju Tsoutsouras 안현주 / Korean teacher)
Fake or not? How can you tell?
I've always been a fast texter
Perhaps it's because I'm constantly on my phone
Or maybe it's because some days I feel completely alone
That allows me to have a small superpower
The power to notice small changes
Such as when people's typing styles become a bit stranger
They can go from sending emojis to a one-word exchange
I try to keep conversation going because I care about people I know
And they were responding so fast
It's weird that now they're so slow
I only have a few people in my circle
Honestly, I try to keep it pretty small
Friends I know would pick up
If I suddenly decide to call
When new people try to join
I don't mind
I'm very lenient
But they'd only answer when it was convenient
The worst ones? The crushes
Some you don't know very well
They might be interested in you
But really, how can you tell?
When you really need someone
Some people, so fake, they'd never even know
So when you have your own celebration
Your own inner circle
They'd want to be on that list of invites
But before...
Breakdown after breakdown
They couldn't have cared any less
So when you're at the top
When you've cleared out your mess
That's when they express
That they want you around
I'm judged
What is it really like to be a woman?
You must walk in pairs when it's dark outside
And only the paths with streetlights
I'm judged
Make sure your phone,
fully charged before exiting your home
Don't forget to message your friends
When you safely return
I'm judged
Cover your figure
That skirt is too short
Cover your legs
And just like that, you're considered an object
I'm judged
The lengths some must go through to be safe? Too much to even say
We also have a fear of looking good
Just to fit what other people think
But what do I think?
I think that I don't wanna wear makeup for the rest of my life
I don't wanna wear a mask to look good
It's the same as lying, in my opinion
Do this
Do that
I'm judged
I don't want to be judged
I want to be free
Not like I'm living someone else's fantasy
Of what I should be
Good grades
Little Miss Perfect
Good makeup
Little Miss Perfect
Good behavior
Little Miss Perfect
I'm judged
One mistake
Little Miss Failure
One breakdown
Little Miss Failure
One tear
Little Miss Failure
I'm judged
I have a loud laugh
But my tears will fill up the ocean
I love like I've never been hurt before
We're all judged
We don't want to be judged
we want to be free